Downswings

The last couple days have been the craziest Poker days of my life. At present time I'm on like a 14 buyin downswing. This recent swing has made me start questioning everything. My abilities, my confidence, why I play this dumb game. But as a rational thinker I know this shit is only for the moment and will not last forever.

As a semi-accomplished player I have the privilege to talk to some really bright Poker minds. Some regarding actual hand histories and strategy, some on other topics like control and discipline. I've come to the conclusion that Poker ages you, ages the mind. I'm 21 but I swear when it comes to Poker I am a 40 year old. I don't budge on my beliefs on bankroll management, tilt control and all those important elements of a winning player. Right now 100NL is testing me on all levels and I think the saying will be true that good things will come for those who wait. For those who fight for it. I have always been a fighter and I swear I will conquer 100NL.

I was actually lucky enough today to be able to have my good friend/sickest 100NL grinder come over to sweat my session for two hours. I was relieved to hear that he thought I was playing near flawlessly as I respect his game like no other. He actually also said that I must of killed a man in another life because how bad I was running. I Lol'ed.

Tomorrow I will be taking the day off as I got to attend some school shit. I'm trying my best to stay motivated to grind but it's hard when you can't win a pot.

If any of you ever want to rail me I play from 11:30 to 5 on Stars. Username Free Advice. GL at the tables!